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If you were given the chance, what one thing would you tell the entire world?

That one song by Jewel :) I'm not gonna google it.

Sick, But It Could Be Worse

Quick update on this thing known as my life.
When I was in middle school, I was diagnosed with clinical anxiety, when I went to High School, they told me I have depression, then said I must have both because the medication wasn't taking care of the depression. Now 'they' (lots of people...) are telling me I'm bipolar.

WTH?!?!?!

How the hell can I be bipolar? Other than the way this entry in sounding. I told my dad they thought I was bipolar and he said I was the calmest manic depressive (what bipolar used to be called) that he ever met. I told my mom, who worked in the court system all her life and she couldn't believe it...of course the bipolars she met were usually the ones that had psychotic episodes. I (that I know of) do not. So I'm now on all sorts of drugs, not that I care if they help, but there is this one drug and it's making me have nightmares really, really bad. The other night I dreamed that my cousin was kidnapped, raped, and the only reason I knew she came back home was because she updated her facebook profile picture, but she still didn't want to talk about her kidnapping. Yeah, it sounds weird but when you're having the dream, thats kinda creepy.

Also, google is a blessing and a curse. I went online and googled the medication that I'm taking and they said that it was common for the pills to morph from nightmares into night terrors in about three months time. I have been on these pills for one month, and this is the state of my dreams right now, I can't imagine what can happen next. It's one of those things, that you have to choose, feeling better during the day vs. feeling better at night.

Also, I got another sleep study done, and my neurologist thinks that I have narcolepsy - goody. No wonder I was always falling asleep in class and forgetting things - I was probably sleeping when someone told me. This is a case that I'm happy about though. The medication for this just keeps me awake for a couple hours and doesn't turn me into a zombie.

I have a sneaking suspicion though that my family doctor talked to my new neurologist about the neurosurgeon that he sent me to before him. The neurosurgeon just kind of kicked me out of his office, telling me the numbness that I'm feeling in my feet has nothing to do with the fact I have a bulging disk and told me the only part of me that should be feeling numb was the left side of my left foot - not my toes. I kind of resented the fact that he told ME where I should be feeling numb. Like I couldn't feel it for myself - dumbass. Anyway, my new doc, in an attempt to not kick me out for toe numbness (diabetes and a few other things have been ruled out already btw) ordered a gazillion blood tests - and you want to know what he found? Something wrong with my LUNGS. What the hell??? Now my head doctor is telling me something is up with my lungs. On the bright side, I'm having a doctor thats actually doing something for me, primarily everything because they don't know what is wrong with me.

Back to my lungs though, he thinks that I have something called sarcoidosis (google it yourself, I'm not writing an explanation here, to long) and it attacks all the organs in the body, but primarily the lungs. I, once again because I'm a retard, googled this. DON'T GOOGLE THIS CRAP IF YOUR DOCTOR THINKS YOU HAVE IT!!!! IT WILL ONLY SCARE THE LIVING CRAP OUT OF YOU!! Actually, in this case, it wasn't that bad. A lot of treatments and all that, and sometimes it just went away on its own. But then I started reading the signs and symptoms - you want to know what else has those same signs and symptoms? Histoplasmosis. Now, you're probably going, how the hell do you know what the symptoms for histoplasmosis is? Easy - I have ocular histoplasmosis. This occurs when you get histo in the lungs and the spores move from the lungs into the eyes. I always get scared whenever I have a one day flu, because there is a chance that I'm going to lose part of my vision soon after it. Usually though, there are no signs that make people worry about my lungs. "You're young, you'll be fine. You just got unlucky because it went into your retina." But what if there was damage to my lungs? What if I have a fungus there that isn't going away? I got POHP (Presumed Ocular Histo Plasmosis) when I was 11. I'm 22 now, that's a lot of time for a fungus to damage the lungs. It might also explain why I got staph infection, why I got a virus on my foot (fine, its warts, none of you people can see my feet anyway) I have over a hundred of warts on my foot that my docs say my healthy young body SHOULD be able to fight off, but I keep getting more!

On the bright side, maybe they are figuring out what is wrong with me finally - hopefully.

Lolo
I don't have that much to say right now - I'm just updating how bored I am. I'm watching ShopNBC and they are selling 'Modern Sailor Suits' for the modern woman and it's meant as everyday wear.

Uhuh.

No way.

Okay, I'm done now.

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2 Book Reviews - Going Bovine by Libba Bray and How High the Moon by Sandra Kring

Going Bovine by Libba Bray

Age Group: Teens and up, lots of sex talk, death

Summary: When Cameron, a high-school slacker, finds out he has fatal mad cow disease, he sets out on an epic quest to find a cure and maybe save the world, too. Accompanied by his friends -- Gonzo, a dwarf, and Balder, a Viking god disguised as a long-suffering yard gnome (don't ask) -- Cameron faces an increasingly bizarre series of misadventures involving a punk angel, New Orleans jazz musicians, and snow globes in this very postmodern retelling of Don Quixote.

Review: For starters, it was kind of easy to get where the story was going from the start. There wasn't any real surprise from one page to another, and I kind of knew what was going to happen next before I read it...

That being said, this book made me cry. Watching how the family deals with Cameron's illness and  how he deals with it really made me think about my own life a bit and those around me and whether or not I really make an effort to get to know people. If you want to be closer to someone or have a good relationship with someone, you're the first person who needs to do something, not them.


How High The Moon By Sandra Kring

Age Group: Teen/Adult (It's a 10 year olds point of view...but a lot of talk about the 'Juicy Jitterbug' and prostitutes sort of brings the rating up)

Summary: The summer of 1955 is a tough one for 10-year-old ragamuffin Isabella, nicknamed Teaspoon, who's been enlisted into a Big Sister–style program that's supposed to teach her civilized behavior. Five years earlier, Teaspoon's mother took off for Hollywood, leaving her boyfriend, Teddy, and her daughter to take care of each other; now a full-fledged tomboy, Teaspoon is paired in the program with popular 18-year-old Brenda Bloom, whose mother owns the movie theater in their suburban Milwaukee town. Sketched with nostalgic sweetness, this hard-luck coming-of-age story sees Teaspoon discovering her talent for singing while getting caught up in plans for the theater's gala re-opening, her mother's promised return, Teddy's budding relationship with Sunday school teacher Miss Tuckle, and Brenda's romantic dilemmas. Kring (The Book of Bright Ideas) gives her young, put-upon protagonist an authentically weary voice, but telegraphs her plot revelations, provoking little emotion beyond the mildly touching. Though the chatterbox heroine makes an engaging narrator, readers may be reminded more of Dennis the Menace than Anne of Green Gables. (From PUBLISHER'S WEEKLY)

Review
: The book was sort of bland, and the entire time you knew what was going to happen after the first couple of chapters. I wasn't really surprised by anything in the book. It was pretty straightforward and was like a few other books that I read when I was younger about the tomboy girl being the only one to have her head on straight when everyone else thought it was on backwards.
This novel does explore some not lighthearted themes but the book itself WAS lighthearted. Some of my favorite characters were the prostitutes and the darkest theme of the story was rape but it was only mentioned for a page as it had nothing to do with Teaspoon. I did think the book was sweet and it was a quick read that ended on a happy note so if you need a pick me up story after a sad story (say... Going Bovine this would be a good book.

List: Customer Names

It takes me forever to write nowadays - primarily because I don't feel like getting onto the computer because I'm on it all the time at both of my jobs :) I'm either looking up appointments or scheduling people and their pets at the clinic or looking up test results on the internet OR I'm at the hotel putting in reservations or checking guests in or out. And now I'm going to go on a tangent.

Have you ever noticed that when you work at certain jobs, your customers are called different things? Like a hotel calls them guests, a restaurant they're diners...etc. Because I'm bored, I am now making a list :)

Hospital/Clinic -- Patient
Vet Clinic -- Client (animals = patients, not clients)
Convenience Store -- Customer
Hotel/Motel -- Guest
Restaurant -- Diner
Colleges -- Students/Parents (:D)
Fast Food Joints -- Customer
Sam's Club -- 'Members'
Insurance Company -- Clients
Theater -- Guest (?)
Pet Stores -- Customers
Furniture Stores -- Customers

The way I see it, if you're leaving a place with physical objects in hand (doggy bag not included), you're a customer. If you're leaving with nothing physical in hand but money has been exchanged, you're a client - a hotel/motel thing though is different because you're a 'guest' and you are temporarily living there. Diners (is that how it's spelled? I know that's how you spell it for a Diner, but not for the people themselves. I think so though). If you're a patient that's obvious, though now that I think about it, the vet clinic terms are similar to kids going to the doctor. The Clients would be the parents but the patients would be the child...

I hope everyone had a great Memorial Weekend last week (2 weeks ago? Crap! Can't remember!)
I'm going to go trolling LJ now :) Have a fantastic week!

Lolo

Some Things I Have Learned

1) While dogs feel better after having their their anal glands expressed, that doesn't make them like GETTING them expressed
2) Puppies are squirmy. Really, really squirmy.
3) Puppies don't like shots, and shots most dogs don't notice, puppies do.
4) Big dogs are hard to lift onto the table that also weighs them.
5) Cats that act like dogs are awesome.
6) Cats that act like cats are cats. Their a pain to restrain, but I love cats so :P.
7) Don't ask the vet what he has been doing when he comes in from a farm call and you wonder why he smells like he does. Chances are the answer will make you sick.
8) Dead pigs smell. A lot.
9) Always ask how to spell the drugs, there isn't 'regular' spelling in the world of medication.
10) I really, really wish I had pharmacology already...

Not much to say, today was actually a pretty boring day at work, but it was nice to. At least I got to learn more on shipping everything - very important to know :)

Lolo

You Might Be A Vet Tech If...

Hello! I am alive still and things are going good :D I'm sorry if I worried anyone but I have been so busy that just getting home was a blessing. This semester is almost done YAY! Only to start up again in about two weeks after that >.> Ugh. Oh well.

Quick update -- I am currently working at the hotel, the vet clinic and still going to school. I am still in the process of lowering my hours at the hotel. I'm basically going to school full time and have to part time jobs (31 hours at the hotel, 20 hours at the clinic, and 12 hours in school + 2 online classes)

When I'm home, I use it to sleep and study, lol!

Kind of boring but alas, my mind is fried, I just really wanted to get onto LJ and write, I feel like I've been neglecting it.

Under the cut is just a cute list I found :)


 

You Might Be A Veterinary Technician If...Collapse )

I'm Alive!

Ack! I'm ALIVE!! Tired...but alive! I've been so pooped lately between the hotel having me full time, school, and figuring out a schedule for the vet clinic. I haven't surfed the web in...when was the last time I wrote someone? It would have been then.
I went to a movie last night with my mom - thats a little different for me since I usually go with my dad (We have the same taste in movies - fantasy and/or totally immature). We went to see 'How to Train Your Dragon' I loved it, 5 stars all the way, maybe 4 1/2 at least - mom gave it a one star :P Dad would have liked it.
Oh! We built Stephanella a new cage (my dad and I), I'll try to take some pictures of it soon hopefully - dad liked doing it so much he's thinking about making a small business with them.
I'll try to update more often, and/or manage my time better, but I like sleeping :D

Ta!

Lolo

Not So Depressed

I think I have the best parents in the world. You want to know what happened the last few days? I've been so depressed for no reason, just hating myself and the world in general and not enjoying life even though everything was going my way. I talked to my mom about it and what happens? The next day I'm scheduled for an acupuncture appointment, a massage, and an adjustment. When I got home I was just teasing my dad when I said we could still make the Alice In Wonderland later showings and what happens? He tells me to get dressed so we can go :D and then he buys the 3D tickets even though the show we were able to get was about an hour and a half away so he took me out to eat.

Oh - and I got the hotel job for sure, and now I'm just waiting to hear back from the vet job. I'm employed again! YAY!!

Ta!

Lolo

School and Spring

Yeppers, I'm still here. Just giving a quick update to tell you all I haven't fallen off the face of the Earth yet. Nothing much in my life happening except I might have two jobs plus school in the future. All work and no play = Lolo's possible future life. I'm actually at the library trying to get ahead on some of my homework - primarily my online classes since all I have to do for those is read the book and answer questions and the teacher will go through and grades them as the dates they are due come up. I'm think I'm in April's later assignments for my Human Relations class and later this month for my Changes and Choices. :) I'm actually enjoying these classes because dun dun dun - no human contact! Ugh - I've been major derpresso lately and I don't think that the cloud/weight/headache that has been around me these last few days (weeks?) is going to be lifting anytime soon? Can't wait to run in the sun again though. It's been slightly over freezing for about three days in a row for about three to four hours each day.
Perhaps spring is coming. At least something good is happening.

Lolo

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